September 21, 2012
How I can reinvent myself
In life I have several times been at a stand still and thought,
"wait how did I get here?"
"what the heck am I doing?"
"who am I?"
I'm still in the process in my journey of becoming Ashley 4.0
Instead of Ashley 2.5
But what I have realized is that at any time and at any moment if I want it badly enough to change
I can change it.
I think for most people, we learn by experience.
You want to see, feel & sometimes taste the results.
But that means seeing, feeling, and tasting consequences.
But when your getting negative results.
Other wise known maybe as "rock bottom"
You realize a change might be needed
It has taken me a lot
And I mean ALOT of rock bottoms lol
Let me tell you!!! (Actually I won't because thats a novel in itself)
But I will say that I have gone through more in the twenty three years of my life,
than some people do in a life time.
And I mean that very seriously.
Back to "rock bottoms"
Because they are so fun...
any way if it takes you here to feel like its time to reinvent DO IT
It took me forever to realize, Hello you're already at rock bottom what else could you possibly lose!!!!
So through my journey I have realized this:
It's not really a science re-inventing yourself.
I know people from my past who know me as Ashley 1
and people in my present who know me as Ashley 2
But I also know that it just floors the people who know Ashley 1 that run into me now because that can't believe how much I have changed.
And I plan to continue that
And hopefully I can use my story & my life as a message for others one day
So Keep on keeping on!!!
September 20, 2012
So recently I have had things come to mind that I've felt like writing about.
How I can reinvent myself
In life I have several times been at a stand still and thought,
"wait how did I get here?"
"what the heck am I doing?"
"who am I?"
I'm still in the process in my journey of becoming Ashley 4.0
Instead of Ashley 2.5
But what I have realized is that at any time and at any moment if I want it badly enough to change
I can change it.
I think for most people, we learn by experience.
You want to see, feel & sometimes taste the results.
But that means seeing, feeling, and tasting consequences.
But when your getting negative results.
Other wise known maybe as "rock bottom"
You realize a change might be needed
It has taken me a lot
And I mean ALOT of rock bottoms lol
Let me tell you!!! (Actually I won't because thats a novel in itself)
But I will say that I have gone through more in the twenty three years of my life,
than some people do in a life time.
And I mean that very seriously.
Back to "rock bottoms"
Because they are so fun...
any way if it takes you here to feel like its time to reinvent DO IT
It took me forever to realize, Hello you're already at rock bottom what else could you possibly lose!!!!
So through my journey I have realized this:
- You find out a lot about yourself when your alone. Re-inventing takes a lot of soul searching, what am I here for what's my purpose questions. And most of the time you don't face your real issues unless your by yourself. Your forced to talk to yourself , so to speech and even literally (because I do it all the time)
- When your trying to become something, I know you want to ask your friends for advice. But let me ask you this; When you decide to become a doctor, do you ask your cosmetology learning friend how to score an A on your MCAT?!? NO!!!! You ask them to hook you up with some highlights and move along! If you want to be a doctor you follow a doctor you admire. Someone who has what you want. Who is what you want to be inside and out because if you ask your cosmetology friend, true she may have some valid points you'll end up knowing how to get her lifestyle and not the one you want. Make sense?
- Who cares if they care. WHO THE HECK CARES!!!! I spent so much time worry about what they would think, and what would this person say and how would I tell this person I can't. Blah blah blah. Who the heck cares because yes they may make a big stink about you becoming a better person but thats because misery LOVES company. They like feeling like they don't have to work and by you staying at the same level in life as them theres no competition. They don't have to face the fact that they might be a lazy bum who spends to much money on taco bell. Change because you want to. And deal with the hoop la, because it'll be worth it I promise. Like I heard on one of my World Ventures CD's. There are people who run the race and those that stand in the crowd. And in this world although you'd like to think that everyone would be cheering for you as you run that race, there will be some people booing as you pass by or throwing sticks at your feet to trip you up when you pass by. And sometimes those people are your friends and sometimes they might be a sibling. But you know what, you know you're doing the right thing because your running the race, your not on the sidelines watching everyone else run it like they might be.
- Your not full until HE feeds you. Im sorry if I offend anyone here. But in my opinion you aren't full until He feeds you. I have been on this search all my life, and I though it was for love. I went through a phase where I was trying to fill a void that was un fillable. I couldn't figure out why and its because I was searching while the Lord was waiting. I needed Him that whole time, not him.
- Read! Seriously I hated to read for a short period of my life. I think I thought I was too cool or too busy. But growing people read. So if your not a reader, I'm sorry you better read. Reading 10 pages a day is proven to make you a better person. And I'm not talking about books you read for fun. But books that make you dig. Books that talk about how to become successful, books that are full of knowledgeable advice and learning in them.
It's not really a science re-inventing yourself.
I know people from my past who know me as Ashley 1
and people in my present who know me as Ashley 2
But I also know that it just floors the people who know Ashley 1 that run into me now because that can't believe how much I have changed.
And I plan to continue that
And hopefully I can use my story & my life as a message for others one day
So Keep on keeping on!!!
September 20, 2012
So recently I have had things come to mind that I've felt like writing about.
But how do you write about the economy, opinions, trails and tribulations with a cutesy post of my sweet girl right underneath it?
I felt like I was betraying her by posting outside of mommy world right above her picture.
But I do need a place to write what I want and yack about pointless stuff.
It's my break from excited super smiley toddler talk.
WHICH I LOVE!!!
Seriously I LOVE being with my daughter 24/7, I wouldn't have it any other way
So this is my new page of expression!
In forewarning, I'm just writing here.
I'm not trying to offend or preach to anyone here.
Thanks for reading!
